Stop thinking.

I'm not going to lie. I'm depressed.

No no, not in that whole, "oh Lord, I think I'm going to OD on prescription drugs," "I think I'm going to go jump off a bridge" or even "I'm going to hit a puppy" kind of way...

... just depressed.

I don't know what's coming over me. Perhaps it's:
  • The fear of the "real world"
  • The fear of not being able to find clear direction in my life
  • The fear of... him
Even a combination of all three. There is just a hell of a lot going on in my head right now. I'm not getting the best sleep in the world and I certainly am not sincerely happy.

I've been told that I think too much, overanalyze and am unable to simply "be". (I also tell myself that all the time.)

I'm not sure where my life is taking itself right now. I do know that things will be better one day, but I'm just impatient and want all of the answers NOW!

Perhaps I'll find a few of them soon. If not, I am seriously going to consider printing out clip art of a cute beagle and ripping it to shreds.

1 comments:

thebethy said...

Hey you~ just wanted to say hi and let you know that we all go through this stuff from time to time. My take is that it makes us stronger, and can be a jumping off point to something better.
Hope you're feeling better. <3

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